August 28, 2009

thank God im moving out

 i just had an argument with my parents. My dad is now unemployed and my mom is on vacation so im stuck at home with them and they are driving me insane. all of a sudden they want to come back into my life and say and do things that they couldnt have said and done when they were working. i want them to go away. they keep asking me what i want to eat, and what im going to do today, and if they can pick me up somewhere, and if im willing to do this and go there and say this for them. God, leave me the fuck alone. Im used to coming home by myself and seeing no-one there. Im used to eating alone at home and cleaning up for myself. Im used to venting and gossiping and talking with friends that had time to lend an ear. Get the fuck away from me, stop touching my stuff, stop coming into my room, stop waiting for me, stop driving me everywhere, stop asking me things that you never asked before, stop bothering me about things i dont really care, and stop treating me like a fucking baby again.

and if you want to argue about things that dont make sense, then shut your mouth. you guys are so fucking hypocritical. you start yelling so i turn up my music to drown you guys out and you tell me to shut that thing down because im not the only one living in the house. WELL I HAD BEEN living in my house alone, for a long ass fucking time because you guys were off to work, or with your friends, and now they want to tell me to shut the fucking music off. are you kidding? how about all the times you guys come home and watch korean comedy stuff and chinese action movies with the volume all the way up while i was in my room studying or trying to get some sleep. why didnt you turn YOUR volume down, you guys werent the only ones in the house right?

and stop coming into my room already. a couple times was okay, but stop coming in every single fucking day trying to start a convo or to see what im doing on the computer. stop telling me to go into my facebook so you can see what friends i hang around with. stop being so paranoid when i close a window when you guys walk in. im not watching fucking porn or anything wrong; i just want a little privacy, especially when im talking to people who were there for me when you werent. stop coming into my room when im talking to someone. stop being nosy. go away. shut up. get out of my room, and stop bothering me.

im trying to understand you guys; i know, im moving into my dorm in two days, and i know youre not going to see me everyday, but please stop showering me with your attention. its annoying and i want to start new without a cloud hanging over me.

2 years ago