hahaha i have a crush

i have the biggest crush on someone, the kinds of crushes that when you think about you and that person being together, you feel this weird fluttering and sinking feeling in your chest. the kind of crushes that will end up being nothing, and all you can do is fantasize and imagine some story. the kind of crushes that the other person is nothing like you, and that in real life, you and your crush can never be together. the kind of crushes that makes you upset when you see that person with another.

I had my first little heartbreak when I saw that person holding hands with a guy, who happens to be my friend, on the street. All i did was say Hello in the most enthusiastic and cheery little happy tone, and after they walked away, i felt like i wanted to cry. CRY. what the hell is wrong with me.